Regrets?

I miss the old me. The fun me. The me before all this. But, as much as I would love to go back to those days, I would never give up my daughter. I love her more than anything else. Every time I start thinking about how much I miss the old me, I remind myself of that. The old me didn't have Lily.

Wondering

I'm so depressed. I realized yesterday that most everyone that was in my life when I was happy is still happy now. Sure, they've had their hard times too, but somehow they've made it through. Denise is no longer in an "abusive" relationship. Even if she doesn't have her kids with her right now she's still happy to be away from Mike. Jen seems to be happy from what Miranda says. She's married with a kid, what she always wanted. Even Josh seems happy. Not what I expected for him, but if he's happy, I'm happy for him.

I just can't help but wonder if I've made the right choices in my life. I mean, even if I didn't, I can't go back and change my decisions, but I still wonder. However, if they weren't the right choices, I wouldn't be where I am today. The good and the bad. Without the bad, I wouldn't have the good, and without the good, I most certainly wouldn't be sticking around for the bad. Thinking about this could drive a person crazy.